Dear Vywamus,
I have often been told that I have an over-active imagination đ
Although I am completely aware that the art I create is inspired and comes through me from Source, I have a much harder time accepting that those little whispers inside my head that speak in my own voice are coming from anyplace other than my imagination.
I manage to meditate at least 30 minutes a day, in segments of 15 minutes each. I read everything that comes to me when I have asked a question, and watch for signs, so I am good at picking up on outer messages. And some days, my entire day is a meditative one, with focus on my breathing and being ‘in the moment’ no matter what I’m doing.
Is there a way, other than this, for me to learn to accept that the voices are not me going crazy or imagining things and learn where specifically they are coming from, as well as how to hear them more clearly? Also, have I visited your Ashram recently?
Thank you for any information you can give me.
Many Blessings, Patricia
Dear Patricia,
Yes to your last question. I have many places of teaching on the nonphysical levels, some of which you may experience as ashrams, or simply centers of learning. You study with me often, whether in the dream state or at levels beyond your usual conscious mind, and I see that you have picked up some memories from there.
Clearly you already are a channel when it comes to creating your art. But like many others, you find it harder to receive accurately and trust what comes to you in the form of words. This may be because most of you have limiting beliefs about yourselves and your reality, implanted in you at a very young age, and the words or sentences in which these beliefs are expressed clash directly with words you may be receiving from Source, your guides, or from your own higher Self. So it may be useful for you to do some work to let go of the specific beliefs you carry, two of which you have already stated: âIâm crazy (or people will think Iâm crazy) if I believe in this inner voice,â and âIâm only imagining what I think I hear.â
It would be ideal if you could join a channeling class where you can discuss doubts and fears and where you had the opportunity to practice, and receive feedback and validation. Whether you are in a class or doing it on your own, practice, with an open mind, is the best thing. It is also very important to record whatever you think you are receiving. The more you practice and record, the more it will start to flow. Afterward, you can evaluate the accuracy and clarity of what you get. But, just as with an artistic process, rather than interrupt with censoring and evaluation as the process is occurring, itâs important to let the flow of channeling come and then evaluate it later. Validation can come either by evidence from the external world or from other people you may get information for, or by your own growing inner sense of what âfeels rightâ to you.
So, more and lengthier practice, asking questions and recording what you get, could be your next step if you want to develop this ability. And, of course, not everything you hear inwardly is directly from Source or guides or your higher Self. Some of it may well be from your own unconscious mind, or your personal hopes and fears, and to be aware of the existence of these personal reactions within yourself is always essential in determining what source your material is coming from. As you practice, you will gradually develop your own inner âyardstickâ for measuring whether you are on target with the information youâre getting, or whether it is solely coming from the personal concerns of your everyday self.
This shouldnât be too hard for you, since you have already developed a very strong and accurate âyardstickâ to measure where your art is coming from. So you already know how.
If you canât find a channeling class, and want extra help while doing it on your own, Andrea often recommends to her classes Sanaya Romanâs book Opening to Channel, in which the author offers steps to go through and shares her own experiences. You may also find it helpful to look over the letters on this web page, especially those Iâve written to others who are also trying to develop their ability to channel.
As to the practices you are already doing â the meditation and being present in the moment, as well as your art â congratulations! I am glad that you have made the efforts you have to open up space in your everyday life to be present to the larger realities around and within you. This is tremendously helpful to your progress on your path in life. And you are only one momentâs step away from resolving some of the remaining doubts and issues youâve written about here. In the language of your everyday self, you are on the âright track.â (Of course, in the larger sense, you donât need a âtrackâ since You are already âthere.â)
Please feel free, in meditation or before sleeping, to call on me whenever you need to.
My blessings and help are always with you.
Vywamus