Dear Vywamus, I am struggling to overcome my disability/energy crisis and having challenges at home with my teenage son and his negativity/health challenges. Mostly I am expending my energy into maintaining the home/finances, but my heart desires to heal myself/family and extend healing/love energy outward. I am basically about ready to give up, because within my own strength I can’t do it all! Am I destined to be a lightworker or should I just accept life as it is and be at peace and just let it all go? Something has to give here, I am just not sure what that something should be! Love and Light, Laura Dewitt
Dear Laura,
Congratulations! Your feeling that something has to give, that you’re about ready to give up because you can’t do it all with your own strength – these are absolutely right and are actually very positive signs. This is definitely a phase on your spiritual path in which you are being asked to let go. Not give up, but let go. You are ready to let go of the old, restricting view of the world created by your mind and ego, and enter a new spaciousness at the soul level.
The challenges with your disability and energy, your son, your finances – these are simply temporary forms in the “laboratory” of your current life. They may bring you interesting, sometimes difficult, lessons that draw forth in you courage, love, and wisdom. But where you and so many others get stuck is in thinking that these challenges and “problems” are all there is to your life. Your mind and ego tell you that if you could only solve or get rid of these challenges, then you could really progress spiritually, and really be a light worker.
I see you as already a light worker. The problem is your not being aware of it. This lack of awareness usually comes from getting so caught up in the forms of everyday life that you don’t allow yourself enough time to be in touch with your own essence, your soul, the deep underlying aliveness in the core of your being.
You may already have some favorite ways of making space for your soul. It needn’t take hours every day. Five minutes a day might be enough, if that’s what you have. I often recommend meditation, dancing and movement, creative work, enjoying the senses of your physical body, enjoying the company of people you like, letting healing energy flow – and don’t forget laughter. True laughter frees you in the space of one moment from the burdens that press down on you. You can read over my recommendations to others on this web page and see if there are some there that work especially well for you. However you do it, spending more time connecting with your soul will bring a shift inside so that you’re not so apt to get overwhelmed by everyday life problems. Some of them may even solve themselves. And from this place, you will eventually see your path more clearly, and any actions you need to take – whether about solving “problems” or about bringing your light to others — will emerge.
Remember, nothing can prevent you from being a light worker right now, right here, because you already are. You are bringing your light to all these situations you have mentioned. And if you’re not always getting obvious results from bringing your light, don’t be fooled by this. Whether you realize it or not, your light is already spreading out and affecting all the people and situations you’re coming in contact with.
And, in the future it is very likely that your light work will take new forms, some of them more like what you picture now when you think of sending out love and healing in your family and the world. Meanwhile, please let go and relax about needing to achieve certain specific goals right now. Simply be open to the depths of your soul and your own inner wisdom, and the goals will come to fruition at the right time.
And lean on me and the other guides. We are always with you, always sending you our love and energy.
Affectionately,
Vywamus