Dear Vywamus
Spiritual competition
Bulling and competition in a Vywamus group the channeler not strong enough to act about this? I had to leave. I feel very sad and alone. Please tell me what took place. I need your guidence?
Love Gold
Dear Gold,
I offer you my love and support. We guides at our level never condone bullying and unkindness – it is the very opposite of what we come to teach. And, your situation is one that occurs often in groups and therefore will be of interest to many readers of this page.
Unfortunately there are many souls still trapped in the fears and insecurities of mind/ego who labor under the false belief that “winning” in competition and exerting power over others is their only way to feel safe. Anyone who takes part in or accepts such bullying and competition is in just such a state of fear, even though they may outwardly appear strong.
The channeler in this case was taken by surprise and was hampered by a personal sense of inadequacy and fear, enough to temporarily block the channel to me. This does sometimes happen, of course – channelers are human and not perfect, and their own issues and inadequacies can come up and prevent a clear channeling. Had the channel been clear, you would have heard me address the bullying issue and help bring everyone in the group to a higher level of understanding and harmony.
As it was, you were confronted with an old issue of yours from many lifetimes: the need to stand up for yourself and the feeling of being on your own and without backup – in this case, from me, and from other members of the group. It is not a new issue for you, and there have been many times where you felt helpless to address it. In this instance, by walking out, you did stand up against the competition and bullying by showing that you would not stay and tolerate such behavior. In this particular situation, feeling taken aback and overwhelmed as you did, that was the wisest choice you could make, and we guides support you in it. If you should encounter a similar situation in the future, another option for you then might be to share with the group your perception of the atmosphere of competition and bullying and put out the question: “Is this really what we want to be doing?”
This whole situation has been a powerful opportunity for learning, not only for you, but for the channeler and everyone else in the group. There were one or two who understood what was happening and felt confused or paralyzed about how to handle it. Others were in denial or even drawn in to their own ego issues.
Every human group includes the strengths and the limitations of its members, and as such is a classroom rich in lessons. Spiritual groups are no exception. It is not possible to find a perfect group, even when led by an ascended master, but it is possible, through talking together honestly and in a cooperative way, to learn to understand the failings in the group and transform them into assets. This particular group may or may not be ready for it, but engaging in this kind of collaboration will help lift you out of the old limited mind/ego framework and is part of your evolution as humans.
Now, if you personally are still not at peace within yourself over what happened in the Vywamus group, I suggest, as I often recommend, that you go to your own higher levels (by meditation or however you like to get there) and there have a conversation with the higher Selves of all the members of the group. At that level there is no bullying, no rejection, no competition. Even if some members of the group are not very much in tune with their own higher Selves, it is helpful for you to be in touch with them at that level and to know that there all of you have a strong, healing, and enduring bond.
After visiting with them at the higher levels, at the personal level you may wish to speak in the group about the situation where you experienced the competitiveness and bullying. Or, you might instead write a letter about your perceptions to be circulated in the group. To do this can be a further step forward for you, and also offer others an important learning.
While you are working with this, be assured that our love is with you. I see this situation as a transformative opportunity for you – an initiation, you could say. Thank you for sharing here your experiences and your pain. Many others may benefit from reading your words and mine.
I and other guides are with you on this path.
Blessings,
Vywamus