(Dear Vywamus)
I’m one of those who can’t find a place in life…
I emigrated to change my life but still lack a self-confidence or ideas allowing to manifest who I AM.
I’ll be 50 this year but feel lost….
Any suggestion for myself or general ideas how to manifest potential gathered within…
Wanda
Dear Wanda,
Of course you have a place in life, and you are in it, but you have had trouble recognizing it. And perhaps that is because you are looking at it in an old framework which is no longer valid. For you, as for all humans at this time, your place in life, your main task, is to consciously connect with the spiritual, or numinous, energies – your own I AM space – that formless, limitless space that is beyond the mind.
From your question, it is clear that you know about that I AM space already. Whether you get there through meditation, creative work, yoga, or other practices that work for you, spend as much time as you can in that limitless space, and as far as you are able, bring that limitless consciousness into all aspects of your everyday life. When you do that, your life is a success. You are fulfilling your main purpose in coming here. Moreover, you are likely to find that, as you genuinely and fully commit to this main purpose, conditions and circumstances in your material world improve so as to clear the way for your secondary life purposes, which involve your work, your relationships, and so forth.
Now you, and others who attempt to bring in the numinous, will always encounter the inner voice of your ego/mind – and sometimes right in the middle of a meditation or creative work. This voice will try to draw you away from that I AM space, and pull you to base your sense of security and your sense of self worth on what your culture teaches you you “should” be: “I should be making more money,” “I should achieve more,” “I should be liked by everyone,” “I should work more, do more, be more,” and so on. Just observe these inner comments as they come up, as a scientist would watch microbes under a microscope. You don’t need to identify with them. They are simply a collection of the limited beliefs of other humans in your culture, which you have been trained to take in and regard as your true reality.
Accept that you hear these comments. Then go back into your I AM space. There, you deeply know that you are always all right, always safe, always enough, and always have all you need. Faith in yourself, and trust in your universe, are an unquestioned part of that. Here you are simply “being,” and at the most important level, that is enough.
Instead of leaving this I AM space to solve your everyday problems, bring your everyday problems here, and simply allow them to be, without expectation. In this space you access a far deeper intelligence than is available to the small personal you of everyday life. Bring your problems here and give them over to the deeper intelligence that works beyond your imagining. See what happens. Sometimes the problems melt away. Other times you will have insights and sudden inspirations and guidance in how to solve them.
Now let us look at another layer of your situation. For you and for all who may read this, it happens that, when you are ready for a shift on your spiritual path, shifts occur in your external reality which make it impossible to go on as you were, and cause you to question yourself and your ideas of how the world works.
Perhaps, for example, you have been going along on a particular career path with moderate or greater success in that field, when you hit a snag. Suddenly, or gradually, things that used to work for you and help you progress are not working any more. You try them again, working harder, and still they don’t produce the same results as before. That is, more or less, what has been happening for you. Other people may still be getting good results with the same methods you’ve been using. Why not you? You feel stuck and at a loss.
The “stuck place” is a very fertile one, though it may seem to you as if nothing is happening. In reality, your whole way of being is going through a change. You have outgrown the old forms you are used to, and are in the process of developing new ones that fit you better. You can resist the change and keep trying harder with your old methods, or you can accept and participate in the change, which is likely to make it go faster. This is actually the same thing that is happening in the shift in humanity’s collective consciousness, as I have described in The Next Big Bang. For you, this larger shift is reflected and embodied in the microcosm of your own individual life and circumstances.
For you, while you are in this phase of your life, I have suggestions:
1) As I already mentioned, spend as much time as possible in your I AM space and bring your problems there.
2)Since your body and your energy fields carry the stuckness, and carry your customary old patterns of thinking, feeling, and acting, the energies in your field tend to freeze into the old patterns and keep the stuckness going. I suggest that you help your energy to flow more freely throughout your body and energy field, and especially the solar plexus. My favorite way for you to do this is by dancing – when alone in your own space and using music that fits your mood (sad, anxious, angry, joyful, uplifted, creatively inspired, and so forth). Dance expressing and accepting what you feel for at least a few minutes a day. More is good.
Doing this frees you up to allow your deepest creative potential to flow into the world, and it also frees you up to receive the helpful energies that are all around you, and which you may have unintentionally blocked.
3) If, after following all these recommendations, you still feel lost and perhaps even seriously depressed, do find a way to spend some time with a wise counselor. You are not expected to do everything alone!
4) Finally, do all you can to let your own inspired energy radiate out to others, whether this is informally, through your simple presence with them, or through your work. The world needs your light. To radiate it may take the form of more social connections – even if not work related – or more networking, bringing the attention of others to what you do, or it may take the form of teaching. In any case, look for more opportunities to share your light, your talent, your expertise, without regard at first to how financially rewarding it may be. This kind of radiating to others helps you “prime the pump” so that that white-hot stream of joy and creativity that I see within you can fountain out into the world. And when that happens, you will have burst out of the cage that the mind/ego likes to keep you in. Who knows what wonderful adventures will await you then?
You are being taken care of, even if you may only see that by hindsight. Put my suggestions into practice. You are not meant to stay imprisoned in fear and uncertainty. Step out of that cage. Enjoy your adventures. Enjoy your life.
Fondly,
Vywamus