Dear Vywamus,
I am stuck at such a deep level and so full of pain it is hard to live- Having had a number of accidents I have become extremely sensitive and take in far too many energies. I have a a strong feeling that despite all the accidents, i could be doing much better, feeling at ease and in love with life again. What do I need to do to get clear again and flow with life in the beauty I know there is?
Thank you
Li
Dear Li,
This is indeed a difficult challenge that you have undertaken, and you and others who are in a similar situation to yours have our love and support, always. I will be speaking in general here, so take whatever resonates with you personally and let the rest go for now.
First, of course, on the practical side, I am assuming you have already explored many avenues for helping your body, including possibly conventional medicine, alternative medicine, chiropractic, acupuncture, massage, energy healing, EFT, diet, and exercise. I hope you do not rule out the ease that judicious medication or herbal treatments can bring you. Hypnosis and EEG training can also be helpful if you still need pain control. I am sure you have already tried many of these avenues I have mentioned, but if possible try any that you have overlooked. Not only may it be a support for you if you should find a caring and skilled practitioner with good energy in one of these fields, you are also showing your body how much you care and want to help. So on the practical level, do all you can, and then accept the reality of your situation at present — always being aware that from the present moment, more change and healing is possible.
Now, what you are really asking about here, I understand, is not so much about the physical side, but what to do about the injuries to your emotional energy body. And as you say, how to get back your joy in living. For anyone, after accidents or injuries, it’s likely that you should feel physically and psychologically raw and vulnerable, and possibly more open to the negative energies around you as well, which may bring you down still farther. You could call what you go through a form of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. In addition to the stress and fatigue from physical pain, you may have a fear.
of being hurt, and a tendency to want to retreat into a “safe” place and not engage with the world as you have in the past. Though you may actually now be in a physically safe situation, your emotional and bodily aspects are damped down and in retreat. This is a natural phase of healing, and should be given some time. Now you are feeling more ready to move on to the next phase, and I have some suggestions for you.
But! — before going through the steps I will outline to help you move into the next phase, first you must surrender to what is. Stop fighting. Accept where you are, as genuinely and wholeheartedly as you can. Accept your bodily problems, accept your feelings, accept that you want to do everything you can to help yourself, accept everything in your current situation. Even accept that you don’t want to accept everything. I know this may not be easy, but as you continue to practice this acceptance as best you can, it will bring you great peace. Then go on to some of the steps below.
First, as I always recommend, spend as much time as you can in the states of higher consciousness, whether you get there by meditation or in other ways. This is such a healing and generative place that even moments there have a great effect. So go there as often as you can, and when you come back from there you will be better able to work with your everyday self and your situation in everyday life. Whether or not you do this, your problem of feeling shut down and lacking in joy may shift or gradually go away on its own, with time. But it may not, if there is a life lesson for you to learn here first. So if that is the case, I have some further recommendations for you.
Whenever something is going on with the emotions and/or the body, I always urge you to hold some inner conversations with the parts of you that are having trouble. It does not work to try to rise above or ignore or try to get rid of your inner distress until you have fully understood and brought love to it. Talk to your body, and also to the emotional parts of you that feel afraid or unwilling to engage with the world as before. And of course, also listen to them. Ask how they are doing and also ask what they need, and then ask what would have to happen for them to be fully alive again, and even joyful. Then see if there are some life circumstances you can change in line with their suggestions. That is a good beginning. As you do this you are already preparing the way for reversing your retreat.
While doing this work you may well come across some limiting beliefs you are holding. Pay attention to them. One of them could be, “I won’t know how to experience joy again until I am physically and emotionally recovered from my accident.” This is a belief, not a statement of actual reality. Let me remind you that many mystics and saints, and ordinary people too, have endured great physical, mental, and emotional suffering, and yet have been able, in the midst of their sufferings, to be in love with life. And what one human can do, you can do. So if you are aware of holding this limiting belief, or any others that come up, I suggest you do some work to transform them, using some of the ways I have outlined to Wendy in my letter of 7-23-13 on this page.
Now in addition to doing this work to help yourself, it seems to me you need a jump start. So first, look at what in the world has brought you comfort, nurturance, joy, and good feelings. What do you love? From sensory experiences as small as having a hot shower or listening to music, or looking at something beautiful, to spending time with people you love who can nurture you and laugh with you, to being out in nature — whatever you love, or have loved in the past, or might love in the future, make the effort to flood yourself with it. Do this even if your response to these things is temporarily less than before. Be patient. You may suddenly find yourself looking at a rose with all the wonder and joy you had before.
Try also to find some kind of gentle movement you can do (yoga, dancing, etc.) which will help your bodily energies flow. While allowing this flow, especially focus on your heart, your solar plexus, your gut, your pelvis. These are likely places where your emotional energies are shut down. You don’t have to be very vigorous here unless you want to. A little attention and intention to allow the flow there will be enough.
In working with the body and the emotions, old issues from this and other lives may come up and give you the opportunity to look at and resolve them. Sometimes you can resolve them simply by bringing them to light, or by having inner conversations with the parts of you that are involved. Or, you may decide to get the help of a trusted counselor. Remember, none of these issues are in the way but are part of your path. They’re part of what you came here to do – and to help others to do.
Finally, in addition to visiting the levels of higher consciousness often, it will be helpful if you engage in a creative project, large or small, or some other activity you love, in the everyday world. Both these activities immerse you in the higher energies, which is good for the cells of your body and your entire energy field.
You have an important spiritual mission right now — to learn how to accept your accidents, their results, and your emotions in your everyday life situation, and at the same time, to begin to live more and more in the higher levels of your soul consciousness. This is part of what you came here to do. And if you are willing, it is also your mission to help others who are in a similar situation to do the same.
All this does not mean you have to remain in your current physical and emotional state for the rest of your life. But for now, take what practical steps you can, and then accept what is the reality for now, and bring light to it. Accomplishing this will help your soul’s awakening, and will be one of your personal contributions to the great treasury of humanity’s learning. And as you move forward, having been through the fire, you will be able to flow with life in beauty, at a new level that you have not reached before in this physical life.
We guides at my level live in joy, and we invite you to join us there for as much time as you would like to spend. Reach out and take our hands. Here there is no pain, no fear, only full aliveness, and here is where the core of you deep down always lives, is always all right, is always in joy. It takes only a moment for you to come to this core and be in that joy.
Lovingly,
Vywamus